Which Is More Soul-Destroying Hopelessness or Drug?

Just finished watching the movie "Protg" and at the end of the show. Daniel Woo sitting inside the room by himself and said "After the death of his two friends now he know why people take drug it is because they feel empty and hopeless. But until now he still don't know which one is more scarcely hopelessness or drug? And the end it showed Daniel himself as a undercover policeman going to inject himself with drug.

By now I guess he found the answer, hopelessness is indeed more scarcely, unbearable. Even though the movie does not said anything at the end.

Someone was saying this and it makes me think too. She said she was pondering about the man who committed suicide and killed his two children. Since he is a Christian he will one day stand before God but than what would he said since he murdered two of his own children.

I don't think I like show like "Protg" it involved too much of my emotion. I really can't calm myself down by not thinking about it. Hmm... I think I will not go for movie like this anymore. I know myself pretty well by now as to what extend myself can take.

Perhaps I am a highly emotional person. *sign* I just can't go to bed now I know I will keeps thinking about it. And with my kind of negative depressive mood. It will be all sad emotions that stir up.

I on some nice instrumental music and trying to blog perhaps this will ease my feeling for awhile.

I wonder with this kind of "emotional" personality will that be an advantage or it will become a defect in becoming a counselor?!

Will I be too emotional about my client situation? There are thousand of unanswered question in this world. Questions in life that cannot be answer. Unfairness is a fact that operating in this world. There are no such things as fair. Life is unfair. Is that fair for the chicken to be killed and eaten by us?

Do you have an answer for this?