Chikere Ugwulebo, I AM SORRY.
I didn't expect it but it has met with me. You remember the saying, "when you go searching for the truth, be prepared for what you might discover"? That sagacious statement is true.
As I close the year 2013, I have taken the most painful step ever. It provoked and still makes me sober.
To have a better 2014 and subsequent years ahead, I am faced with my past. I am scrutinizing the past 5years of my life. Interesting as it was when I started, now, I am bitter.
Friends, was I all that? Was that this same Chikere? Ah! I truly was selfish, wicked, rude, proud, heartless, daring, stupid, cunny, and all that I was called. My life then, now I realize, is nothing to write home about.
For awhile my dear Readers, disregard what you know about me now. Block your present perception of me and let me briefly gist you about my past. I was the Devil. I used people. I was everything you picture of someone you heart. Despite my so called achievements, it is hard to say, but, I am forced to admit my life has not been the best. It can be converted into an inspirational story, yes. However, I regret living it, every bit of it. I am not proud of that life.
I deserve to have been knockdown by a running car. I do not deserve many's love or care any longer. Anyone who hated or hates me is justified. So I was the Devil you know friends? Ahh!
To all, female or male, young or old, married or unmarried, family or non, whom I have left for 'dead' or contributed to their cries/sadness, I am sorry. I AM SORRY. Saying that might not change anything for you, but, know that I am sorry. I wish I could turn back time. I wish I could take back my words or actions. I wish that wasn't me. I wish.
The deed has already been done I know.
With my knees on the floor and tears running down my eyes today, November 4, 2013, I say, I am sorry. Please accept me. Please forgive me. Please pray for me.
GOD, as you have given me the strength to reconcile myself, and my friends the strength to forgive and accept me, give us all the strength to hold fast to this new life and lifestyle forever.
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This message is from DrLightup Chikere Ugwulebo, O. to everyone he knows, especially within the past 5years.
As I close the year 2013, I have taken the most painful step ever. It provoked and still makes me sober.
To have a better 2014 and subsequent years ahead, I am faced with my past. I am scrutinizing the past 5years of my life. Interesting as it was when I started, now, I am bitter.
Friends, was I all that? Was that this same Chikere? Ah! I truly was selfish, wicked, rude, proud, heartless, daring, stupid, cunny, and all that I was called. My life then, now I realize, is nothing to write home about.
For awhile my dear Readers, disregard what you know about me now. Block your present perception of me and let me briefly gist you about my past. I was the Devil. I used people. I was everything you picture of someone you heart. Despite my so called achievements, it is hard to say, but, I am forced to admit my life has not been the best. It can be converted into an inspirational story, yes. However, I regret living it, every bit of it. I am not proud of that life.
I deserve to have been knockdown by a running car. I do not deserve many's love or care any longer. Anyone who hated or hates me is justified. So I was the Devil you know friends? Ahh!
To all, female or male, young or old, married or unmarried, family or non, whom I have left for 'dead' or contributed to their cries/sadness, I am sorry. I AM SORRY. Saying that might not change anything for you, but, know that I am sorry. I wish I could turn back time. I wish I could take back my words or actions. I wish that wasn't me. I wish.
The deed has already been done I know.
With my knees on the floor and tears running down my eyes today, November 4, 2013, I say, I am sorry. Please accept me. Please forgive me. Please pray for me.
GOD, as you have given me the strength to reconcile myself, and my friends the strength to forgive and accept me, give us all the strength to hold fast to this new life and lifestyle forever.
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This message is from DrLightup Chikere Ugwulebo, O. to everyone he knows, especially within the past 5years.
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